♥ Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Just Don't Feel Like It
Time now is exactly 8am. I'm all ready. Showered with make up on my face. All I have to do is to put on my clothes and head out to work.
However, I just informed my HR to tell her that I'll be taking the day off. Don't blame me, I'm just following my heart and I am feeling so disgusted just by thinking of the office but if you really need to blame someone, blame Aid cause when I told him what I just mentioned, he told me indirectly that I should just continue my sleep. Heh!
Tomorrow is the last day of April and I'm looking forward to tomorrow. For now, I shall just continue my sleep...
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 8:00 AM
♥ Monday, April 27, 2009
The Unofficial Job Scope
My position at this new place is 'Secretary'. I am to assist the team's work and of course the boss' as well. At times, I would have to arrange for their flights too. The problem is, this is a local company and thus far, I've only arranged for 3 or 4 trips.
My administrative duties are very minimal. Too minimal! Most times, I will have to drag my work just so I have something to do till the end of the day.
Those mentioned above are my official job scope.
I do feel that facebook-ing and msn-ing daily are part of my scope of work as well. An unofficial one perhaps. Sounds perfect? It's not! Like I mentioned in one of my previous posts that it doesn't feel as good as it sounds. Yes I can surf the net but imagine surfing in discreet for hours. That is not enjoyable at all. Yes I can msn openly but still, if the higher ranking human beings see me on it each time they pass by my table, that can be quite awkward.
I'm tired of acting busy, trying to look for things to do. To be honest, I really do not know why they need 2 secretaries in the office. What I do in this new place is 1/8 of what I used to do in DP.
There's a lot of other negative issues going on in the office. For now, I'm just hoping for something better. I can't go on like this - it's really disturbing.
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 9:50 PM
♥ Saturday, April 25, 2009
A Couch Bed Potato
I woke up early today, showered and had breakfast while watching Friends. Everything was done in my room. More than 12 hours later, I'm still watching Friends.
The intervals I had were going to the toilet, told Bibik to prepare me lunch and taking a nap.
This is indeed the best way to entertain myself (with no money involved) while Aid is on the suckiest shift!
Whoever said we don't need friends (pun intended of course) to be happy!
Oh! On a different note, I am so yearning for rain or wind at least!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 11:45 PM
♥ Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Time Off!
While I was still tossing and turning on my bed this morning, I heard a thunder. Less than 5 seconds later, it was pouring heavily. Very heavily. It was as if someone had turned on the tap on full blast. That made me contemplated a visit to the doctor's. I headed to the toilet instead.
Went out the house slightly later than usual. Had my most unglamourous moment in the train - I slept and did my 'head-banging' (it's been awhile) throughout my journey. The moment I got up, I felt giddy and while walking towards the office, my stomach felt funny. The moment I sat on my seat, I was in cold sweat.
Coincidentally, Aid is not working today so tadah! I'm at home right now blogging and suddenly, the giddiness, funny stomach feeling and cold sweat are all history now. Muahahahaha!
I didn't lie about feeling unwell, I am unwell but it's not that much anymore. I think I am stressed up subconsciously - for an apparent reason and I'm trying to do things at a time now but everything seems to be on my mind all at once.
For a start, I really need to do something to the never-ending mess in my room. Below is a picture of my room on normal days. *deep breath*
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 12:20 PM
♥ Sunday, April 19, 2009
My First Make-Up Set
When I was a kid, I got so excited each time I had a tarian (malay dance) performance because that was when I got to be all made up with blue eye shadows and red lipstick. That was probably the reason why I continued being in a dance group in primary school.
Staying back and going back to school to practice was never draggy cause I know that I would be performing while looking pretty to the crowd. Getting remarks like 'Wah! Rasheeqah, you look so pretty!' made me all smiley! Hey, who doesn't like praises right? On second thought, I don't really like praises at this age maybe because now I can tell the difference between a fake and an honest one. Oh! Let's not digress here.
Back to looking pretty, I wasn't allowed to wear make up during my primary school days. Not even lipstick but somehow, I ended up having a few lipsticks in my drawer. Hehehe!
At 12, I was so envious of my friends whenever I saw them openly applied lipsticks in front of their mothers. I then tried to convince my mum that I was old enough to have at least lipstick on my face. I failed!
Then, there was once at a relative's wedding, I was made up by one of the older relatives. I was the happiest girl! It was full make up and there wasn't any performances and best of all, Mum didn't frown upon seeing me. I pushed my luck and made myself up the next day with my sister's make up. If I remember it correctly, it was Elizabeth Arden. I felt like a grown up in that room - all locked and helped myself with the make up BUT when it was time to leave the room, I was so scared to open the door! Hahaha! I locked myself up for so long till Mum told me that she knew I had make up on and told me that I didn't have to be afraid. To my surprise, she wasn't angry at all! So there I was feeling like the prettiest girl in the world - having able to have full make up on for 2 consecutive days!
What made me blog about this? Nothing much really. It's just that I just threw away my very first make-up set bought by my sister for my 16th birthday. I was so damn thrilled upon getting that. I refused to throw it away though it was all mouldy but I did it anyway - just a few days ago...*wink*
Ironically, I somehow wish that I hadn't started at all cause I spend a lot of money on make up! At the same time, I enjoy putting colours on my face! Hehehe!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 3:38 PM
♥ Sunday, April 12, 2009
Wishing For A Money Tree
Alhamdulillah, the wedding preparations are going smoothly (bizarrely, the said fact is making me paranoid! Arrrgh!). Those that I had planned to engage for my wedding, have got slots available for me. I'm left with finding the perfect video man and deciding if I'm taking a deejay or a traditional band. Most likely will be the latter.
Aid and I went to Jentayu's exhibition on Friday and I've booked them. The owner, Kak Mel is such a sweet lady. If you have no clue what Jentayu is, it's a company that does the decorations for events and I would like to add that they are very detailed. I am experiencing 'love at first sight' with Jentayu.
I was very relieved after booking them - it's another name striked off from the list. Oh! Perfect Frosting's cakes are so nice looking and they taste good too. We got to try it at the exhibition.
INSYALLAH, our wedding will take place in less than a year (my heart thumping faster than usual as I'm typing these words) and I did some calculations before I went to bed on the same Friday. I ended up not being able to sleep. Hahahaha! All I could think about was money and more money! Thinking of some ways of how can I have more money.
In the meantime, I'm just hoping to stumble upon a bag full of dollars or at least a money tree that produces real money...
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 12:55 AM
♥ Thursday, April 9, 2009
It Would Have Been Phuket This Weekend
I had applied my leave in early March even though it had not been confirmed. Even though the supposed travel mate was sceptical in going for a holiday just us two, I applied anyway because I was very determined and was hoping that she would change her mind but one thing led to another and she had to go Melbourne for some registrations.
Oh well! Oh well! Things happen for a reason - Tsunami might be happening sooner than predicted (27 July 2009!) or mishaps might happen to me as there were a lot of paranoia issues being brought up!
Of course I am disappointed and bitter about the cancellation as I really need a holiday (KL is not considered as a holiday because it was too short and KL is so similar to Singapore!) and it's supposed to be a mega celebration for our 10th year together which was planned about a year ago.
A friendship that has no arguments at all in 10 years is a BIG DEAL and something to be proud of BIG TIME. I am sulking and I am damn petty when it comes to such things!
However, something led me to take out a picture of us that was taken 10 years ago. One of our first few dates at Marina Square after a school event - our first Polaroid taken in an awkward situation. Why awkard? You'll find out in the next paragraph.
If only I have a scanner at home, you readers would be able to see just how 'unglamourous' we looked 10 years ago with a huge crocodile on our laps and on top of the said crocodile, there was another reptile which I think was an iguana. She is quite an animal person but I hate animals and having made to hold the mouth end was so scary! It took us awhile to take just one shot.
Another picture that I took out and then showed around to my mum and Bibik was another Polaroid taken at Sentosa with a fat cobra this time. Again, if only I have a scanner, you people would be able to see the drastic changes in us - be it the amount of make up applied or the amount of kilograms we had put on along the years. Not forgetting our likings in bright colours as well.
As upset as I am, I still wanna wish us a HAPPY TEN YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP!
P.S I still have that magazine holder you gave me...in case you can't remember which one, it's the one made of cardboard and which you won from some games. You gave it to me cause you didn't wanna carry it home. Heh!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 11:59 PM
♥ Sunday, April 5, 2009
Overspent!
Last night before I went to sleep. I was calculating on my expenditure for the past 3 months. To my surprise, the average amount I spent on bills plus what I give to Mum is about $900.00! That is almost half the amount of what I bring back each month! To add to the list, I will have my gym fees to pay. Nice!
On top of that, I spend about $150 at Watsons every month in average. However, this month I spent waaay more than that. Blame it on my vanity!
As all of you can see (bitch about it even sometimes), I have really bad eye bags. Nobody is perfect and I've come to terms with that flaw of mine. Really, I have as mine is genetic so whatever I apply is of no use. All my siblings have it. Even when my sister bought me some pills which apparently will lighten it, I could not be bothered to consume it cause as mentioned, I've accepted me as what I am. I love me!
On second thought, I was thinking since I'm getting married soon (INSYALLAH) why not I try to do something about it. Not that Aid minds but it's just my vanity and the urge of wanting to look better for the husband and afterall, I don't wanna scare the in-laws when I sleep over at his place. Hahaha!
Kakak and Mak Nenek told me to do something about those panda eyes - go for treatment or buy the most expensive eye cream that is available. Kakak made a point when she told me mine is definitely not 100% genetic. It's genetic + late nights + aging. It made sense so I asked around and Myra suggested I try Chanel's. Went to its counter in KL and the whole set costs almost RM500.00!
Still, I was bent on purchasing the set in Singapore. I changed my mind after visiting its counter in Tampines Mall simply because the salesperson was not convincing at all! She sounded as sceptical as I was.
After a few considerations, I settled for Bio Essence. Apparently their products are almost as good as SK's so thanks to the below pictured set, I overspent in Watsons!
We shall see if they do wonders or not. In the meantime, take a look at the picture below. I think vanity runs in the family.
He refused to throw the patches cause he wanted to use it again the following day! Hahaha!
Other reasons would be the recent KL trips and...my bimboticness. I overpaid my handphone bills. I paid $250 when the outstanding bill was less than $100! Grrr!
I'm really broke right now! Damn broken! Broken into pieces and I might need to pay for my wedding decorations next week!
Aaargh!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 6:59 PM
♥ Friday, April 3, 2009
Damaged Done So What Now?
Breaking up from a relationship is really hurtful. Finding out there's a 3rd party is worse BUT being dumped by a friend of many years is more hurtful than that! To realise that you're dumped because of a new beau just gives you an indescribable feeling - in a bad way!
The words that have been ringing in my head for the past months are 'am I that worthless?.
I'm still deciding if a confrontation is necessary cause like I've mentioned, I don't wanna have anything to do with this person anymore. Damaged done and it's time to go with the flow as adviced by the 2 lovelies.
Of course I'm affected. I am hurt I admit and I wish this is not happening but as the saying goes 'no point making someone a priority if you're just a choice in their life'.
Is it still necessary?
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 1:11 PM
♥ Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Yesterday, I had Macdonalds for dinner. Dinner was at about 8pm.
I got home and and realised Mum had cooked Sambal Mussels. She fed me supper and that was at about 930pm.
Yes! I had 2 meals in barely 2 hours! I was really full!
Today, I had eggs for breakfast and half way through breakfast, I remembered that I had to weigh myself and my current weight is 61.3kg!
Tomorrow, I will be going to Fitness First to settle some paper works and trust me on this - I will definitely lose weight or at least inches in a month's time.
Trust me on this! This is not an April Fool's joke. Heh!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 11:20 PM
