♥ Thursday, June 25, 2009
I Need To Rant A Little
As you all know that I'm not working (again). It's been more than a month and I'm seriously not liking it. I feel like I'm wasting my time and feel really useless sometimes. Sometimes not all the time!
It's funny when I mention to some people about being jobless, they'll start to give that certain look and make it sound as if that I'm a habitual job-hopper. Let me make things clear this once. DP Design Pte Ltd was my first real job and I was in that company for almost 4 years. I was jobless for 6 months and joined the last company last November. I was there for 6 months. So please, do not judge me as a job hopper people because I am NOT one and even if I am one, that is my own business! It's not as if you are providing for me!
OK, that's not my purpose of this entry. The purpose of this entry is to rant what's been troubling me.
When I was jobless the last time, I was enjoying it. Even though I was always broke, I was almost carefree and didn't think much. Honestly, I didn't even bother flipping the classified pages till 4 months later. Even then, I wasn't looking diligently.
This time round, I'm really hating it! I don't like it at all! Probably because the last time, I went on 2 holidays and Aid wasn't this busy or probably because then, the wedding plans weren't in our minds yet. Even if it was, there wasn't any fixed dates yet.
Now that there is already a date and we have less than a year to walk towards that, I'm beginning to feel the pressure slow..ly. I'm not totally stressed or pressured but when each new month comes my way, I'd be counting down to the wedding date and that's when I'd feel the pressure.
Me being me, I'm paranoid over almost everything and I think too much and too far ahead! It doesn't help when no one understands. I try to keep things to myself but I can foresee myself going crazy if I do so. I don't see the point in confiding because it's really hard to explain and that will only cause misinterpretations which may lead to a few other arguments. Enough arguments already! Thank GOD I have this space to rant and express my inner feelings.
Even so, I don't feel like elaborating now because it hurts somehow.
P.S Stalker, where have you been? Maybe you'd understand...
Things happen for a reason
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