♥ Monday, March 31, 2008
Somebody!So apparently Somebody is upset cause Somebody sent me to work. Hmmmmm....Well, I would too if I were to be in a similar situation. Guess what?!!! I was indeed in that similar situation! GOD IS GREAT! I found out that Somebody was with Somebody at a public place the very next day! Hah!Before I go on, I really wonder why is it always a valid reason for Somebody to be upset over things like that but when it comes to me, it's 'over-reacting'???Is it because I have Somebody? Hence I don't have the rights to get upset but not for Somebody since he's the one at the 'losing end' since he does not have Somebody? That's ridiculous because I just found that Somebody also has Somebody. Somebody has actually been in the same situation as me all along! If that's not clear enough, what I'm trying to say here is that Somebody 'forgot' tell me that Somebody's status is actually the same as mine since day one!
Is Somebody being fair here? Can Somebody enlighten me please??!!!What do you call that? 'A slipped of mind', 'Short-termed memory', 'Selective memory' or simply 'Selfishness'?
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 11:43 PM
♥ Sunday, March 30, 2008
The Unpredictability Of LifeAnother sleepless night for me...I'm still trying to absorb that unpleasant news into my 'system'. It's hard to believe. Really hard.I was supposed to get out of the house to buy things for my trip but all I could do was going in and out of the room. Sat in the living room but everyone was in and it felt a little crowded. Went in the room to be alone but being alone makes me think of the whole journey. It hurts. It's affecting me really bad. I just can't believe how good people can be at 'role playing' but then again, if they are good I would not have found out the truth right?I decided to go Movida - with Nani. Coincidentally, Aidah told me she was going there as well. She was with the usual people.It was nice seeing her after so long. At the same time, it felt weird cause we were seated at different ends when usually we would be seating and cheering our champagnes together. It was weird. Really weird to see those familiar faces and having so much to say but at the same time holding back. What's even weirder was when the 'dancing partners' became strangers. Not even a single stare to each other. That is sadness...How unpredictable can life be. You can be in someone's arm one night and few weeks later, you become strangers.Oh well! Shit happens! But then again, shit won't happen if you had been truthful instead of wanting to have the best of both worlds!You are indeed a disappointment! A big one at that!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 7:25 AM
♥ Saturday, March 29, 2008
Truth Hurtst's almost 7am and I haven't had a wink the whole night. Nope, I was not out partying. I was at home the whole time and I found out something really unpleasant. Never did I expect this from someone I looked up to.I am so hurt now. Too much information in the shortest time given to me. I feel as if I am going through a break up - or even worse than that!I am not okay now but I will get by. Truth hurts indeed but iI'm glad that I found out sooner and not later.*Big Sigh*
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 6:55 AM
♥ Thursday, March 27, 2008
'Say What You Mean' Instead Of 'Mean What You Say'
I don't quite agree with the last sentence but ya we should not say things we don't mean cause every words exchanged could be a hope for the other party...
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 1:29 PM
♥ Monday, March 24, 2008
ORD Mood LIaoI didn't go to work again! Haha!!!Going to the clinic now to get my MC. Later in the evening I'll be having my farewell dinner at a 'secret place'.Am I excited or what!Happy Monday Blues Everyone!!!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 10:59 AM
♥ Sunday, March 23, 2008
Lazy SundayI'm supposed to go to the office today to clear all the outstanding issues and bring back some personal stuffs BUT I am feeling so so so lazy! Woke up early as usual, did my laundry and lazed around a little. I thought I could just drag my butt to Marina Square at around 3pm or so...till I saw Nasi Lemak in the super large rice cooker. I can never resist my mum's Nasi Lemak! I ate - 2 scoops and after that the expected happened - I fell asleep on the couch! Such a pig! Haha!It's already 5pm now and I've not showered. By the time I get ready, it'll be close to 7pm and I'll probably reach office slightly before 8pm and I wanna get home by 10pm to watch Rouge so I don't see a point in going. I'll just have to be in the office early (which is a hard thing to do!) to sort the paperwork and handover everything to Patience by tomorrow. Patience is the name of the new PA. Some say it's a unique name. I think they meant weird! Heh!On a different note, I am so looking forward to my last day of work, Maroon 5's concert and that very much needed getaway! Come to think of it, that's my first getaway this year. As a matter of fact my first vacation since August. How pathetic is that??! No wonder I'm going crazy!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 5:23 PM
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How To Lose A Guy In 10 DaysI just finished watching that movie on TV. A typical sweet romantic comedy - my kind of movie. *smiles*Someone please start writing the scripts to 'How to forget a guy in 10 days' please! I need the tips badly cause hating doesn't seem to work!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 12:54 AM
♥ Saturday, March 22, 2008
About Colbie's Showcase And A 'Little' Accident!
It took me awhile to blog about Colbie. Why? Cause I couldn't find my USB cord. Hence I couldn't download pictures. I refused to blog about the showcase without having her picture in the entry. Heh!
I only have 2 of her pictures though. We weren't allowed to take pictures during the showcase. What a bummer!!! Big time! That explains why I only have 2 shots of her - taken discreetly. Oh Ya! I recorded her singing 'Bubbly' and 'Realized' too. In discreet of course! Her voice was fantastic okay!
Even Hot Mama loves her now and apparently she was listening to Colbie's songs on repeat mode the next day!
Speaking of the next day, I almost died! Ok maybe not but really I could have. I just can't imagine what could have happened to me.
Aid sent me to work that morning and as always he squeezed in between cars. Somehow that particular moment, he probably forgot to check the blind spot (of course he wont admit this!) before squeezing, or probably it was really true that the car from our left came from nowhere.
We were almost squeezed in between 2 cars. We lost our balances. The right side of my body was literally leaning on the car on our right. It was scary! It was fast but it felt long and one thing I learnt from that experience is not to panic when we're in such situations. Easier said than done but it's something we should do.
Of course I was panicked and I had so many negative thoughts running through my head during that scary moments. Ironically, it was also those thoughts that calmed myself and somehow I managed to bring my body up. Or was it Yoga & Pilates that made me balance myself. Heh!
Ok I shan't go on cause thinking about it is making my heart beats really fast. I do wonder though, what if I had died? Would anyone have regrets? Hmmm...
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 5:59 PM
♥ Friday, March 14, 2008
Wehoo!!!
I entered a contest on Class 95 hoping to win a pair of ticket to Colby Caillat's showcase. I waited and waited and lost hope till I got an SMS and jeng jeng jeng I got 2 tickets to the via-invitations-only showcase. Wehoo!!!
Their question was: What made you bubbly?
My answer: (as corny/lame/cheesy this may sound it was something like this) I feel especially bubbly when I am around someone I am very comfortable with and who is as bubbly............ in the shortest time....Please let me win the tickets. Desperately wanting it.
It was something like that - can't remember the exact words. Those dotted lines represent the missing words. Heh!
So who am I gonna watch it with? Hmmmmmmm *question marks in my head*
It would be nice to watch it with my Sir BUT it has been exactly a week since............
p.s Hot Mama, lu standby ok! In the meantime, you go listen to her songs *wink*
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 1:07 AM
♥ Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Just A Wonder
I woke up to 'No One' this morning. Being the light sleeper that I am, I was awakened by Alicia Key's voice at 6am. I sighed! Came out of the shower and 'With You' was on. I sighed and reminisced a little.
On the way to work, 'Hate That I Love You' was on and that song was on again just awhile ago. Oh ya! During office hours, I heard 'Realized'.
So you really think this is the right thing to do? Does your conscience really say so? Or have you lost it altogether?
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 11:46 PM
♥ Monday, March 10, 2008
My Supposed Last Day
If I had been a bull (read: stubborn), today would have been an emotional day for me. My last day of work was supposed to be today. I was persuaded to stay till end of April but after some negotiation, I'll be around till the end of this month and since I still have 4 days of leave (how pathetic!), my last day will be this 25th!
I'm beginning to feel 'it' already. One by one came to me asking when is my last day and started to reminisce certain events. It's really sad! What to do, like I mentioned it's time to think of myself!
My replacement came today and I'll be handling over everything to her slowly. I hope everything can be done in 2 weeks. By the look at the mess on my table, it seems really impossible. I still have so much to do! Grr!
I shall be an efficient worker from tomorrow onwards. It's time to multi-task people!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 11:17 PM
♥ Sunday, March 9, 2008
My Weekend Drama
I'm going through a not-so-pleasant phase at this moment. I wouldn't say worst cause I've gone through worse but what I had been going through since late last year is really not pleasant.
It's probably my 'quarter-life' crisis.
I was not happy with my job, i couldn't find that certain sense of self satisfaction in whatever I was up to - I basically felt empty somehow. As for matters of the heart, I shall not go there cause even I do not know what is going on now. Heh!
On second thought, I think I wanna blog about that - the emotional roller coaster ride. Let's not go into details cause it's really complicated.
So here goes - I was screaming for attention since mid last year. It felt into deaf ears and I became quite immune to it. I managed to find my own distractions - with the companies of friends, their listening ears somehow I managed to entertain myself.
Like what I keep telling my friends, I was sick of complaining the same old shit over and over again. Hence I decided to change things. I told myself it was time to think of myself. Too bad if I ended up hurting anyone cause I really have had it!
Few weeks after ushering 2008, I was back to the cheery me. People around me could tell that I looked happy. I was happy indeed. I felt like a princess and things were getting better. Or so I thought.
Thing is, I'm really clueless of what's really happening at this very moment. Suddenly I'm dealing with a cranky human being and without realising I'm walking back to my past.
I'm not confused. I know what I want and I've decided on that. I am just clueless and I am full of wonders.
Have I said or did something wrong? I hate it when I have all these question marks floating in my head especially when I thought everything was fine. For goodness sake, I am not a mind reader!
However, I'm not really surprised cause I was anticipating all these to happen. I didn't expect it to be abruptly though with no apparent reason at that. Perhaps I was caught off guard cause I thought quite highly of you. Wrong judgement I guess.
I'm more surprised at how I am taking all these weekend drama actually. I haven't shed a tear despite being overwhelmed by coldness and warmth at the same time. I feel more disappointed than hurt.
I realised that I'm becoming emotionless. That talk I had on Friday night didn't make me react the way I should have. My un-answered calls and messages are not affecting me the way it usually did.
Am I getting immune to all these or have I become numb? I don't wanna get used to all these shits cause it's not right. I wanna feel a little bit of pain at least. By that, I won't end up as a sadist or heartless human being.
Help! I don't wanna be that cold person!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 11:18 PM
♥ Saturday, March 8, 2008
It's International Women's Day!
I was chatting with a girlfriend sometime last week and we concluded that men are stupid creatures. We have to tell them what makes us unhappy, what is the right thing to do and that should not be the way. Basically, we have to spell out everything for them. Even by doing that, there is no guarantee that they will get us. That's when they conclude us as being difficult to please. Whatever!
All we need is a little bit more attention and speak up when you think we are doing something wrong. By keeping quiet just to avoid arguments won't make things better and that is a very lame reason Misters!
We girls get cranky at least once a month due to PMSing and we get screwed for that still but it's okay when you guys are being cranky for no reasons - and behave coldly after a wonderful quality time spent together? By ignoring our complaints, calls, messages are simply unethical!
Is that the new definition of being a 'gentleman'? I'm still wondering...
So back to my chat with that girlfriend of mine. She said GOD created men that way intentionally and that's why they end up with us - the smarter ones. Well, I quite agree with that but I disagreed when she was trying to tell me that we just gotta be patient with our partners and always be the submissive parties. I totally disagree on that because I think Smart Women should fight for our rights and not Make Do with whatever/whoever that comes our way - just so we have 'someone to fall back on'.
Lastly, how come I've never heard of 'International Men's Day'? Could it be because there really is nothing to celebrate about them???
Well, that probably is the reason... *wink*
*to all the misters out there, appreciate us while we are still around not when we're gone
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 3:23 PM
♥ Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Bonding Session
I spent 2 nights at Costa Sands Resort with The Girls. The last we did that was 3 years ago when everyone was feeling so low. We even had crying session ok!
This time round is the total opposite. All of us are in 'happy' mode at the moment and we shared happy stories instead of sorrows. It's really different - in a good way that is. *smiles*
We decided to have colour theme and we decided on Orange and Yellow. Here are some pictures for viewing!
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 6:21 PM
♥ Sunday, March 2, 2008
The Last Week Of February
I've been so occupied with lovely people and things to do and also dealing with cramps and an unexpected shiver.
So I went to The Airshow last Sunday. That was actually a date - a full day one at that! Started at 9am and ended at 1am. It's been awhile since I had a complete date like that - complete with a nice meal followed by a movie, a little shopping and a little something at the end of the day. *wink* Oh ya! Not forgetting playing catch in Guardian Pharmacy as well! Muahahaha! It was nice. Really nice. The only bummer was we had to go to work the following day.
What did I do on Monday? I can't remember. Probably went back home right after work cause I was exhausted and burnt due to the Airshow! Hmmmmph! I hate you for that Sir!
I was on MC due to menstrual cramp on Tuesday. It was really bad! I was so cranky and aching all over but I still made it to Mak Nenek's house (I was 2 hours late!) and we managed to do what we were supposed to do. My dearest Sir fetched me and endured my crankiness and 'fulfilled' my cravings that night. Thanks hor!
Had dinner with TB and Lina on Wednesday and went back home. Oh ya! Since last Saturday, I've been busy with preparing stuffs for my department's recreation night which took place last Friday. I had to paint on 60 pieces of coconut husks.
I was on MC again on Thursday as I was down with fever. I was shivering like crazy in the middle of the night and felt so weak. Doctor said I had stomach flu and I felt so weak! Again, dearest Sir fetched me from the clinic despite his always-busy-at-work schedule and we headed to Changi Village for dinner and guess what? I saw a guy wearing a pair of Hot Pink boxers/briefs. It was disgusting ok and I'm still not over it!!!
As mentioned, I had my department's recreation night last Friday. It was nice and pretty sad as that would be my last recreation with the DPDians...
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 10:37 AM
