♥ Friday, February 8, 2008
Where Do I Go?
I woke up this morning to find myself stuck in the middle.
In the middle of a path which has 2 rooms - one on the right and the other on the left.
The one on the right is the one I've been in and out and been so comfortable with. I love the people in it, I get the attention from everyone except the owner itself. For that I think that's why I still feel something is missing in that room despite it being fully equipped. I do wonder sometimes if I am expecting too much or is the owner just too sure that I'll be hanging out there no matter what. Sometimes, I do feel that the owner just want to stop wanting me to visit.
Then there's the room on the left which I visited by chance and miracously felt very comfortable in a really short period of time. The people in it are as amazing and I get the attention I've been yearning for in this room - from the owner that is. It's equipped with things of my needs and of course seemed greener. However, that's too early to judge as the grass is always greener and the oceans always seems bluer on the other side. As for the owner of this room, as much as he wants me to be hanging around, he shooed me away thinking I"m just dropping by for a mere distraction.
So where do I go?
To stay in the room where I've been in over the years or move on?
Part of me wants to stay put in the first room for all the experiences that I had gone through in there but I fear of having that certain unsatisfaction feeling if I decide to stay put. It'll be such a waste to leave only now cause for the main reason is that I still love being in there but sometimes I just don't feel wanted anymore.
Honestly, I'm not expecting for the other room to open its door if i were to leave this room. Nothing is being discussed let alone guranteed.
The other part of me just want to bypass the 2 rooms and keep on walking. Walk till I can't walk anymore. Walk till I find an owner who wants to own me and provide me with my needs. I'm almost done with adapting and explaining. I'm even done with complaining.
I just want to be happy with full satisfaction. No more yearning or whining.
So where do I go??? To the right, to the left or keep on walking?
Things happen for a reason
Blogged @ 1:36 PM
