I so hate making decisions. I just hate the process of it - when I have to re-think and re-think, reminisce, contemplate, forsee and anticipate what's gonna happen etc etc etc.

I had been wanting to tender my resignation since late last year. I was quite hesitant because I thought since I'm so comfortable with my position I should just hang on a little longer and of course those wonderful colleagues of mine were one of the reasons why I am still in the company even after the management decides to change our roles every 3 months. Heh!

The main reason was because I could not stand the new office manager (who had just tendered by the way), but then I thought I should not resign because of her. A few months later, I was suddenly the COO's Personal Assistant at no notice at all. Yes! No notice! I was told at the same time as the rest of the Admin Team. How disrespectful is that! 2 weeks ago, we got our bonus and boy everyone was so disappointed. In fact, we still are!

Now that I have 3 reasons to quit, I have decided to tender by the end of this month. I have not gotten a new job though. I don't see a point in carrying on when I have to drag myself to work every single day.

Nothing's gonna change and voicing out won't change anything. They have their own perceptions and I have mine so there's really no point of staying and it's better to move on now than later. I've realised staying because of the duration and comfort are not valid reasons too cause I've stopped getting self satisfaction these days.

I don't know if this decision of mine is a smart move or not but I guess this is the best since the heart isn't there anymore and life is full of risks anyway. Worst come to worst, I'll just move on and keep trying!

Wish me luck!